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I'm just going to end up rambling if I try to explain everything so I'll just get to the point.

I am a boy stuck in a girl's body. I was born in the wrong body, and my own mother won't accept that. I haven't talked to her about it in details, but when I tried, she thought I was joking and immediately dissed it. She doesn't understand that she's hurt me, and that she continues to do so now.

She won't let me pick the clothes I want to wear, and then complains that I don't have enough clothes to wear when she isn't even letting me choose what I want. She always gets mad at me when I ask her if I can get a boy's haircut, and she thinks this is just a phase.

And this isn't just about my gender. It's also my sexuality.

I know I'm not straight. My mom is homophobic, period . She is absolutely against anything that can't make a baby, and it's just so difficult living with a person like her. It hurts all the more because I grew up thinking I could trust her.

its been like this for a couple months now, but I've had a feeling that I was different since fifth grade. I don't know what to do and I'm so scared.

The fact that I most likely have depression doesn't help either.

I would ask for help, but I just don't know who to ask or trust anymore. The only person I can fully trust is my brother, and even then he's in college and he's already too stressed out with his work that I don't want to stress him out withmy problems.

If if anyone has any sort of advice, I greatly appreciate it.

Thanks for reading this.
Devant-Calbri - Hug and Haircuts by Shadowfangirl2001
Devant-Calbri - Hug and Haircuts
idk i just wanted to draw these dorks hugging, and i ended up giving them haircuts too so yeah
also i really liked how i did the extra layer underneath plus the little dots around from the last pic so i did it on this pic too
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Kaden - New OC ;D by Shadowfangirl2001
Kaden - New OC ;D
so uh
i made a new character
and their agender so they're cool
yeah
idk i'm still thinking of the details
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Devant - Textures by Shadowfangirl2001
Devant - Textures
here have this thing
i got carried away with the textures but i like how i looks so eh
all's good
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I'm just going to end up rambling if I try to explain everything so I'll just get to the point.

I am a boy stuck in a girl's body. I was born in the wrong body, and my own mother won't accept that. I haven't talked to her about it in details, but when I tried, she thought I was joking and immediately dissed it. She doesn't understand that she's hurt me, and that she continues to do so now.

She won't let me pick the clothes I want to wear, and then complains that I don't have enough clothes to wear when she isn't even letting me choose what I want. She always gets mad at me when I ask her if I can get a boy's haircut, and she thinks this is just a phase.

And this isn't just about my gender. It's also my sexuality.

I know I'm not straight. My mom is homophobic, period . She is absolutely against anything that can't make a baby, and it's just so difficult living with a person like her. It hurts all the more because I grew up thinking I could trust her.

its been like this for a couple months now, but I've had a feeling that I was different since fifth grade. I don't know what to do and I'm so scared.

The fact that I most likely have depression doesn't help either.

I would ask for help, but I just don't know who to ask or trust anymore. The only person I can fully trust is my brother, and even then he's in college and he's already too stressed out with his work that I don't want to stress him out withmy problems.

If if anyone has any sort of advice, I greatly appreciate it.

Thanks for reading this.

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SilverTigerSpice Featured By Owner 4 days ago  New member Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you for the fave ;)
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome
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PicklePoweredJalopy Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Natsuki Shinomiya (Super hug) [V1]  Thank you for the fave!!
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome.
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LLDerP Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for all the favs! much appreciated 
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! ^-^
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LittleEarGa Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav! ;w;
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! ^u^
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XChoklit Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist
Thank you ever so much for the watch!~ :heart:
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome!
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SticcatheStickGod Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Happy Birthday! :party::cake:
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yo thank you so much! (*^▽^*)
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SticcatheStickGod Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
You're welcome :)
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
^u^
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ZZ-Art Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch and the fave ;v;<3
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! (Your art is great, how could I not favourite it! x3)
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SCP-Rose Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You've been hugged 
Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send this to all your friends
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SCP-Rose Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
(F.R.I.E.N.D.S.)
=Fight alongside you
=Respect you
=Involve you
=Encourage you
= Deserve you
=Save you

Send this to all your friends and me if I'm one.
If you get 4 back you are liked, but if you get 7 back then you are seriously loved
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ai-eye Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Hobbyist
Thank you for the Watch!=)
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! ^u^
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Shiyuna Featured By Owner May 2, 2014
Thank you so much for the watch! I really appreciate it. kaomoji set 1 9/19 
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner May 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! x3
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AoiKonoko Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
(๑‾᷆д‾᷇๑)৳৸ᵃᵑᵏ Ꮍ৹੫ᵎ
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Shadowfangirl2001 Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha you're welcome! x3
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CorporalWeirdo Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave hug 
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